I'm typing through tears, so don't mind the typos...I still remember the crushing news. It felt like everything I knew & hoped for was ripped from my hands. I felt like my sweet boy was going to suffer his whole life...and that we would too.
I wish I wasn't heartbroken when I heard he may have Down syndrome. I was so mad at God. I specifically prayed for a perfectly healthy baby...I didn't understand. This only happens to other people. I wish I didn't wonder if we should still name him Martin Jr. I was so ignorant. But I won't beat myself up. What I can do is help others to see what a true gift he is.
I wish I would have known what I know now. That Martin would be he happiest, sweetest, most content, easy going, lovable boy. That he would touch so many lives. That the Lord would use him from the second he was born. That he is capable of so much. He is so brave & strong & has come through everything with a smile on his sweet little face.
Down syndrome is beautiful. The part that I hate is all of the medical complications that go hand in hand. Once we came down from our shock, we found out he had a heart defect that would require open heart surgery. Another thing I prayed specifically for...perfectly formed heart...I didn't think I could take it. But the Lord was there to give us all the strength we needed. He's taught us more in these last 8 months than I can begin to put into words. He has used this all to bring us closer to Him & give us a heart that is so much more full & understanding & accepting.
We are a part of an amazing community & Marty was born in a time where people are starting to understand what a gift he is. He has the best doctors, therapists & treatment we could ever ask for.
Martin James Clason Jr. I will fight for you & do my best to show the world how capable you are. You are so much more than Down syndrome. You can do anything you want to do sweet boy. Don't let anyone tell you any differently.
We hit the jackpot. We are the lucky ones.
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